At all times there have been persons who have managed without this help [of the church]. Perhaps you are among those persons. The church has often performed her service badly. That is quite certainly true of our church and of myself. Of the church, therefore, I can only say to you: “She is there in order to serve you. Do what you think is right.” The church is not Jesus, and Jesus is not the church.
The same holds true of the so-called Christian world view. If you understand the connection between the person of Jesus and your [politcal] convictions, and if you now want to arrange your life so that it corresponds to this connection, then that does not at all mean you have to “believe” or accept this, that, and the other thing. What Jesus has to bring to us are not ideas, but a way of life. One can have Christian ideas about God and the world or about man and his redemption, and still with all that be a complete heathen. And as an atheist, a materialist, and a Darwinist, one can be a genuine follower and disciple of Jesus. Jesus is not the Christian world view and the Christian world view is not Jesus.
Anselm distinguished a divine disposition from a divine distribution. The divine disposition requires that we go where God wills, that we be obedient to his disposition, even if it should require separation from friends. At the same time, however, the divine distribution bestows the gift of friendship in our lives. This paradox, which Anselm finds in his own experience, is one of the central problems of the Christian life. Earthly affections like friendship are bestowed by the Creator and no fully human life can do without them; yet that same God may lay upon us a task which makes the enjoyment of such attachments difficult or impossible. “The cause of God,” Adele Fiske writes, “may often run contrary to human affection…. Anselm says rather piteously: ‘do not love me less because God does his will with me.’”
God gives both the earthly bond of friendship, which enriches life, and the calling, which serves the neighbor. Theories which rest content in preferential loves or, alternatively, which glorify the calling above all else fail to appreciate the paradox of the divine will which Anselm discerned. The tension between bonds of particular love and a love which is open to every neighbor (in the calling) cannot be overcome by any theory, however intricate. Our thinking can only warn against certain mistakes, certain wrong turnings which we might take. But this central problem of the Christian life must be lived, not just thought. This much, if Adele Fiske is correct, Anselm clearly realized. “St. Anselm soberly faces the fact that God’s will often seems to work against itself, destroying the gift it has given. This problem is solved ambulando, or it is not solved; he suffers and admits it, but does not try to escape by turning away from human love to love ‘God alone’.” The tension between particular bonds and a more universally open love—of which the tension between friendship and vocation is an instance—cannot be eliminated for creatures whose lives are marked by the particularities of time and place but who yet are made to share with all others the praise of God. The tension between particular and universal love is “solved” only as it is lived out in a life understood as pilgrimage toward the God who gives both the friend and the neighbor.
For me, the goal had never been economic success. For me, it had always been a matter of personal growth within a communal context unstructured by race. It is a very hard fact of life that there exists no such community in any part of the country. But at the same time, it does exist in every part of the country, among selected individuals from every possible background. But this community is a floating world, a ukiyo, sustained, incrementally, by letters, telephone calls, faxes, e-mail, visits from time to time. It is not proximity that keeps it alive, but periodic expenditures of human energy and imagination and grace. This is what I have now, as a substitution for a hometown. I find it more than sufficient.